the pharmaceutical industry has stolen my soul. i want i want to work amongst huge gleaming reactors that span three storeys and contain twenty thousand litres of reactant that have to be monitored through magnifying-glass portals in the very top, so that looking through one down into the swirling chemical soup below makes you feel strangely vertiginous, and to handle hydrogenation reactors with enzymes so reactive that when dry they spontaneously combust, such that the outer walls of the reactor rooms are made false, to be blown out in case of an explosion, and to know that the drugs you are making are in their purest form, no excipients, to be actually ingested by real people who are sick and will get better because of your drug, as opposed to getting checked by a professor then poured down the drain. forget about hospitals and all that fighting for dispensing rights, my god who needs to prescribe when you can be finding new drugs to be prescribed!

perhaps the stars in my eyes are blocking my view of the biochem assignment in front of me that i have no idea how to do.

OMG why has my nus mailbox been closed!!!!! theres no way im over the limit, i have like ten emails in my inbox wtf.

*edit* okay so i still have the very first email i sent from last year about credit transfer in my sent mail, maybe thats why ugh. but this is ridiculous still! i managed an entire year in ntu without emptying my trash, yet another reason why nus sucks along with the bus stops planted in the middle of nowhere and me never with an umbrella.

anyway. saturday newspaper feature on wild girls, i doubt anyone saw the credits at the end but the photos were taking by khong yenling who used to be my classmate and is now photographing for the freaking national newspaper in year two while i sit on my hands in cold cold lecture theatres learning about eicosanoids (ok i lie, that lecture was a month ago, i have no idea what eicosanoids are now, i am doomed, damn and blast) i dont for a moment regret leaving cs but really. way to make a girl feel small and inadequate man

then again this is why i still love ntu even though ive already left, how can you go wrong with a name as long and impressive as Nanyang Technological University Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information, an entire school on its own with its own pretty blue building with built-in party roof and sandwich machine! the communications and new media programme in nus is rubbish lah seriously, a jumble of rooms stuck in some random arts building, if you want a career in media GO TO SCI.

also today during a presentation someone quoted wikipedia in the slides. i almost died trying not to snort.

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fools in love,
are there any creatures more pathetic?
fools in love,
never knowing when they’ve lost the game